Facing Failure

💖I have been facing failure💖
Failure to meet my goals
Failure to make any sales
Failure to connect with people I wish to work with
Failure to show up for my art, my audience, my soul
Failure to cross off my todo list
Failure to keep my promise to myself to go ALL IN despite the distractions of doubts & fears
Failure to BE the kind of mama/wife/woman/leader I wish to be

So I had the weekend to wallow in self-pity and whinging
A weekend to sob & wail & tantrum
A weekend of silent rage & numbing tv watching

AND

some intentional journalling
some intentional releasing of said rage/sadness/shame/humiliation/guilt/embarrassment
oh there was so much shame!

AND

asking the question
what do you want to DO next?
what do you wish to BE next?
how do you want to move forward? Or stay here?

🔥I DECIDED🔥

I DREW A BOUNDARY -- around my wallowing. around how far I go with the criticising and lamenting and berating of my self. around how cruel my words. around the numbing and reaching for past addictions to avoid painful feelings

I DECIDED to move forward
I DECIDED to try again
I DECIDED to ALSO focus on the good. however small and insignificant & CHOOSING that THAT is enough
I DECIDED to NOT go back. To allow myself some kindness. To allow myself some gentleness. To surrender to what IS, to embrace the painful feelings AND STILL stand up again

I DECIDED to create more art.
Despite the absence of accolades, or engagement or cheers or approval or encouragement.
To express what is within, despite the silence.

CHOOSE courage over old habits of fear following
CHOOSE creating over consuming to cover up the pain
CHOOSE your calling over the claps & cheers. Even if it means silence. Or isolation. Or sacrifice

CHOOSE you. CHOOSE your art. CHOOSE to keep going

- x Brenda -

p.s This was a post I initially wrote inside my Muse Mama village - it's where I share my heart & all the different ideas and art I am called to make. 

It was meant to be a quick connection post, but thanks to the creative juju of the community, it grew and expanded into this sharing.

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